what we take from this is what we'll get

i hip hopped it up tonight. what a fun and humorous hour it is each week. plus i get a little cardiovascular workout, which doesn't hurt. i also spent a good portion of the day at a coffee shop with a friend. fun times. we got to talking about life and stuff-how we are and all that. i am just so confused. i need someone to tell me either a) what to do or b) what i'm waiting for; because i don't know either and feel mostly useless. this song came on when i was running today that got me all pumped up, partly cuz it's fast and partly cuz the words just hit me right every time.

This Week the Trend
Relient K

And this week the trend
was to not wake up till 3pm
I picked the few conscious hours that I chose to spend
and slept away the rest of them

and this week the trend
was to crash and burn and then return again
to practice the life that I pretend
provides enough to get me through the weekend

so I say
give me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave
you gave me a solution
what have I done with it
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
and now it's this minute, this hour, this day

And this week the trend
was to backstab every single one of my friends
and leave a voicemail message trying to make amends
all the while hoping things work out in the end

and this week the trend
was to borrow all the strength that you could lend
to keep my head above the water and not descend
back to where I said I'd never go again

So I say
give me a solution
and watch me run with it
and then you gave
you gave me a solution
what have I done with it
cause I was absolutely sure I had it all figured out
way back then
but after this day it's this week all over again

And I just want to get mugged at knifepoint
to get cut enough to wake me up
cause I know that I don't want to die
sitting around watching my life go by
and what we take from this is what we'll get and we haven't quite figured it out just yet
because all of us are all too stuck
strapped to a chair watching our lives blow up
stuck watching our lives blow up