freedom hangs like heaven over everyone

it's monday, but saturday for me. that's one of the minuses of an unusual job: unsual hours/days. so my weekend this week is monday and wednesday. i'm excited for having the whole day to get things done. even on days when i open and am off by 2, i need time to recover, which ends up cutting more time out of the day.

the apt is coming along. we've been doing little decorative and finishing touch type things the past week, and each little thing makes it more like home and more pleasant to come back to at the end of the day. i'm still overwhelmed with time on my hands, even on days that i work, and i'm trying to figure out things to do with my time so i feel less like i'm just killing time between shifts. there were a couple nights last week when i felt like jennifer lopez in the wedding planner when she comes back to her quiet apartment at the end of her work day and prepares a nice meal and sits down with her tv tray in front of the tv to have her lonely dinner. ha. i never really watched tv before i moved here, but there's something about the quiet and even a couple hours alone that lands me there, watching sitcoms on dvd. sad. haha.

having so much alone time has made me a better runner, in that i find myself with nothing else to do, so i do it. and my town is cute to run in.

i'm not really down today, but that's what seems to be coming out. so i'll just leave it at that, and try to be more upbeat next time. happy day.

so let go, jump in

the hardest things about roadtrips are a) unpacking and b) battling the semis on the highways... especially in the rain.
but those things don't hold a candle to the reason for the road trip. i got to hang out with courtney this weekend in her new city, and i must say we really did make the most of it. we had good talks, saw good music, had coffee and pizza and cheeseburgers (not all at once), went for walks and talked lots. it was so good.

i just watched garden state with my roommate, jess. i love that movie so much.

i love the part where andrew says to albert, "hey albert, good luck exploring the infinite abyss." and then albert's like, "you too."

in small group we're studying acts. the first thing that stood out to me when i read it, and came up in discussion tonight, is in verses 4 and 5 of chapter 1. Jesus tells his disciples not to leave Jerusalem, but to wait. He tells them in a few days they'll receive the Holy Spirit and then be able to be witnesses around the world. to me it translated into my life in terms of waiting for whatever it is i'm waiting for, and being prepared for, and just kind of showed that even Jesus wasn't like, "hurry up and get out of town, what are you waiting for?!" i like that.

i leave you tonight with a quote from serendipity... a great fall film to watch with your dear friend while eating brownies.
"Yet even in certain defeat, the courageous Trager secretly clung to the belief that life is not merely a series of meaningless accidents or coincidences. Uh-uh. But rather, it is a tapestry of events that culminate in an exquisite, sublime plan."

changes come

my life has been defined by change as of late. nothing too big; but change nonetheless. there's of course the moving out of my parent's house, and i was promoted at work and have been learning all that new stuff. i got my keys to the store today. it felt important. and some new friends have moved away, and i don't think that would have affected me the same, but with moving out i've felt lonely and keep wondering, who can i call? :)

today i was struck by how thankful i should be for my job, and am not. i have so much fun at work, and usually it goes fast; and now with my promotion i can afford to live, so what more could i want for right now?

i had this major sense of development in the air today after i talked to my friend jill. her, my friend courtney and i are somehow oddly enough doing very similar things (though not intentionally) in different places. it's very interesting. and new opportunities, or exciting ones that we've talked about, have been bringing themselves up recently, and i feel like that's something.

i'm just feeling very thankful today, and happy. and maybe a little tired.

i'm going to st. louie this weekend to visit my dearest courtney. i'm so excited.